Simon Pegghas candidly revealed his long battle with alcoholism and depression.
The actor and comedian, 48, spent years attempting to hide his struggles, calling his time in the throes of addiction as “awful, terrible.”
“It owned me,” he toldThe Guardianin an interview published Monday.
Pegg said even as went from British funnyman to Hollywood star, working with the likes ofTom Cruiseon theMission: Impossiblefilms and J.J. Abrams on theStar Trekreboots, his depression did not allow him to enjoy the experience.
“I would feel like — I’m in a film withTom Cruise, I’ve got the part of Scotty inStar Trek,he told the publication. “This should be making me feel happy. But it wasn’t.”
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Pegg — who revealed he has been depressed and self-medicating with alcohol since he was 18 — said things really took a downward spiral for him in 2006 when he began to shootMission: Impossible III.
“When I watch that film back, I can see where I was then, which was fairly lost, and unhappy, and an alcoholic,” he said, calling that time the “crisis years.”
“One thing [addiction] does is make you clever at not giving anything away,” he continued. “People think junkies and alcoholics are slovenly, unmotivated people. They’re not — they’re incredibly organized.”
When his daughter Matilda was born in 2009, the actor was surprised to find out it didn’t change anything about his addiction.
“It was the most cosmic experience of my life. I thought it would fix things and it just didn’t,” he said. “Because it can’t. Nothing can, other than a dedicated approach, whether that’s therapy or medication or whatever.”
His addiction soon became “obvious” to his wife, Maureen Pegg, which caused him to go to rehab.
“I got into it. I got into the reasons I was feeling that way. I went into AA for a while, too,” Pegg added. “I don’t think I would be here now if I hadn’t had help.”
He revealed toThe Guardianhe can rewatch 2011’sMission: Impossible Ghost Protocoland see where he finally began to get better.
“We always laugh about it when we watch the movie. Try it! You’ll be like: ‘F—, he’s got cheekbones suddenly!’”
“I’m not ashamed of what happened. And I think if anyone finds any relationship to it, then it might motivate them to get well,” he added. “But I am not proud of it either — I don’t think it’s cool, like I was Mr. Rock’n’roll, blackout and all that s—. It wasn’t, it was just terrible.”
source: people.com
